After I read your post John I kind of chuckled because I SO AM ready for the weather to break and be halfway nice. I'm
ready to get back outdoors even if its just to sit and watch the fish in my pond swim around like they own the place (hahahaha they kinda do cuz they live
there in that water not me).
So I grabbed up one of my dogs to take him for a walk. We didn't get far, matter of fact we didn't even get out of the yard before he had me
struggling to keep hold behind him. My front yard now has two ski looking track marks and they are not from ski's at all, but from my feet where my dog
pulled me across the yard. So back in the house he went. Since he's still a young pup I figured he needed the exercise the most that's why I tried to
take him first. Since that didn't work out I went in and got my little poodle "Priscilla Pup" (better known around here as Silly Pup) who LOVES
to go bye bye. I don't even have to hook her up to a leash except for the fact that its the law. So off we went for quite the little walk.
I had made dinner for everyone and while they ate I walked the dog. We were gone for a couple of hours & she was rarin ta go still when we got home. I
was done in and needed to utilize the remainder of my energy to clean up the kitchen after dinner.
So yea John, it just might have a little bit to do with the spring fever thing. I don't usually let things get to me
because I understand that getting angry, frustrated, pissy, or anything at all like that doesn't change the situation it only changes me - and usually not
for the better. So I deal with stuff farily well generally. Finances are an issue but that's nothing new, not like we haven't been in a state of
financial ruin for a long period of time and I'm not use to it. My philosophy is "can't squeeze blood out of a turnip" and as long as we
have a roof over our head, food in our stomachs and clothes on our backs then we are doing just fine...so finances aren't a big deal to me I couldn't
care less about the almighty $$$$. Yes, it IS nice to have a few pennies laying around with which to do something that we ordinarily wouldn't.
I don't know why I lost it this time, not like it changed anything - everything is still just as screwed up as it was before (actually worse) but I guess
we all have days like that eh?!!! Hopefully it won't hit again for a long time. But...for some reason I don't think that's going to happen -
would be nice tho!!!
It's snowing tonight, actually just "dusting" because its TOO DAMN cold to snow!!! 
I have a TON of things that need done around here...mopping, vacuuming,
laundry and I want to shampoo my furniture. Things that I should have done for the past couple months while all of this major depression hit me. I know this
won't be the last time I get this way but man...will I be able to handle it the next time??? Seems like each bout with depression gets more and more
difficult for me to come out of.
I wish my life was like some of these video games. Mana has a Wii and we play that silly Mario stuff all the time. She got a new one that is something like
SuperMario8 or something like that. Anyway, its like a carnival where your person plays a life size board type of game. The red tiles take away 3 coins, the
blue ones added 3 coins, there were dolphin rides at some points, there were donkey kong coins at some points, there was a pirate ship that shot your character
thru different canons all the way back to the start of the game. There's candies in the game that do different things, one is a volcano where you spin
your way thru that particular turn and if anyone is in your way you take their coins and candy and send them back to start. Wouldn't that be cool?? Go
past someone in real life and all of their assets become yours???? 
I would certainly feel sorry for the fool that tornadoed past
me...all they'd get is Amanda cuz that's about the only thing I got that's paid for!!!! 
It's truly a good thing we don't own any type of weapon other then Mana's BB gun and our little air guns that shoot those crazy plastic BB lookin
things - they are like 3 or 4 times the size of a regular BB. They hurt, but that's about it...don't think they would cause death and I've got
enough pain I don't want any more!!!
Thanks for the support guys, hopefully one day I can repay your kindness.
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