Hi Lynne, and all who follow!
I would've told Soldier of Pain, but don't have his addy. I'm sure if he's like most here and keeps stopping by to read here and there, that he already knows!
I became very close with Boxer Rex and his family, and still keep intouch with his wife. I'm still in shock, and can't believe there'll never be a nice long chat with hiim again!! I feel an emptiness I can't even explain, and can only imagine what his family's going through! I'm going to send his wife (Kelli) an email as soon as I'm done here...just to check up on her!
Hurtis (Boxer Rex) left a young boy and girl behind too!! Lynne is so right, in that he didn't feel that he was there or good enough for those kids...or his wife for that matter! Chronic pain took his life, and nothing else!! Yes there was depression, but it goes hand in hand with cp right? I tried over and over to get him to see that his family loved him and only thought of what he could still do, not what he couldn't, but he just couldn't get the thoughts out of his head! I guess I'm feeling worse 'cause I'd spoke with him on this subject for days, and got too busy to get online...next I knew, he was gone!!
You're not the only one that feels maybe you could've done something Lynne! I can't help but wonder if he'd been looking for me that day? I know the last time I spoke with him, he kept saying that he was no good for his kids nor his wife...how he felt that she was looking at him in disgust, and his kids were embarrassed to have him for a father 'cause he couldn't do what most fathers do etc. It just broke my heart!! I really wish things didn't get so hectic around here then 'cause MAYBE I could've prevented this??
It's times like this that I find myself wishing that we all lived closer to eachother! That way we'd be alot closer then miles, therefore able to be there in person whenever needed, know what I mean?
Well, enough rambling from me LOL! I'm going to go check on his wife and kids now. I just hope there's something I can do to help them through!!
Luv & ((HUGS)) to all!!
ps...for those contemplating the same thing...please think of those you'll leave behind and how they'll handle it first ok? Concentrate on the positive in your life, not the neg!!!
I would've told Soldier of Pain, but don't have his addy. I'm sure if he's like most here and keeps stopping by to read here and there, that he already knows!
I became very close with Boxer Rex and his family, and still keep intouch with his wife. I'm still in shock, and can't believe there'll never be a nice long chat with hiim again!! I feel an emptiness I can't even explain, and can only imagine what his family's going through! I'm going to send his wife (Kelli) an email as soon as I'm done here...just to check up on her!
Hurtis (Boxer Rex) left a young boy and girl behind too!! Lynne is so right, in that he didn't feel that he was there or good enough for those kids...or his wife for that matter! Chronic pain took his life, and nothing else!! Yes there was depression, but it goes hand in hand with cp right? I tried over and over to get him to see that his family loved him and only thought of what he could still do, not what he couldn't, but he just couldn't get the thoughts out of his head! I guess I'm feeling worse 'cause I'd spoke with him on this subject for days, and got too busy to get online...next I knew, he was gone!!
You're not the only one that feels maybe you could've done something Lynne! I can't help but wonder if he'd been looking for me that day? I know the last time I spoke with him, he kept saying that he was no good for his kids nor his wife...how he felt that she was looking at him in disgust, and his kids were embarrassed to have him for a father 'cause he couldn't do what most fathers do etc. It just broke my heart!! I really wish things didn't get so hectic around here then 'cause MAYBE I could've prevented this??
It's times like this that I find myself wishing that we all lived closer to eachother! That way we'd be alot closer then miles, therefore able to be there in person whenever needed, know what I mean?
Well, enough rambling from me LOL! I'm going to go check on his wife and kids now. I just hope there's something I can do to help them through!!
Luv & ((HUGS)) to all!!
ps...for those contemplating the same thing...please think of those you'll leave behind and how they'll handle it first ok? Concentrate on the positive in your life, not the neg!!!
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