I only had a couple of chances to talk with Boxer Rex and this must have been before he went off the deep end in his mind. I have said it before and I will say it again. The mental end of our chronic pain can be far worse than our actual physical pain. Anyone who sits and broods what lot in life that has been handed them is going to drift to these type of thoughts. I will not mention any names of ones here, but I have often thought to myself that they are starting to go down that dark narrow tunnel that once you do there is no turning around. You would be surprised just changing a schedule as to how you do things from day to day will also cause a hiccup in those bad thoughts. Do things in a different way. Do not let yourself get into such a schedule that you don't have to stop and think what you are doing. Try to keep things fresh. Don't gripe because you have a appointment. Look at that appointment as a way up and out of your current crisis. When you can't sleep, find a computer game to play. Do anything different to occupy that bad time. It's there and you can't stop it but use it in a way you haven't tried before. I've been there and know I will be there again, but I have made up my mind that I am going to win. No matter how small the victory may be, it is still a victory. I'm not going to sit at my computer desk with my head in my hands and lament about it. I will not feel sorry for myself any longer because there is nothing I can do about it. Taking a way out like that only hurts and injures that ones that really love you. It is you that has decided that they don't. I love each and one of my chronic pain friends here and wish I could flash a magic wand and everyone would be cured but the main word here is "wish." Hug your family, tell them you love them, don't let the demons win. Everyone of you are the same person you were before this crap hit, it just takes a lot of adjustment on everyones part. I am not saying to make anyone mad or to hurt anyone. I just feel at times things needs to be alittle bit tougher in our replies to each other.

Hope your pain was less today than yesterday.