Hello Everyone ... please ignore my ramblings - they are the result of a confused mind with too much spare time on his hands
(and a computer forum to spill forth his musings
)
Life is pretty depressing sometimes ... aside from the usual pain one endures, life can just be such a downer sometimes.
Maybe I am just optimistically challenged at this point in time and should just kick back and let it pass, it usually does ... but for some reason I feel that
this time is different, that unless I radically shake things up in my life that I may just stay down here in the pit forever.
Change is the root of my inner turmoil ... I hate it, I am quite happy with my world and wish it to stay the same, yet in saying that I know everything
changes, nothing ever stays the same & I should embrace the challenges ahead (but I don't wanna !!!!)
Strangley enough I have taken to bemoaning things I have no control over as being the cause of my problems, yet I know they are not connected - the death of
Heath Ledger, the retirement of the local sports hero, missing an episode of my favourite TV show (Dexter) because of a power outage ... ok I am shallow,
I'll do anything to avoid being introspective
OK I'll stop here and ask ...
how do you stop the downward spiral !!!

















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